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Friday, March 06, 2009

9:04 PM

Hey I'm bck to update for this March...

I'm still busy working everydae...
my wkends r reserved for my family n myself...
work is still fine so far so i wldn't talk much abt it...

I will just be sharing some tots todae...
Everyone needs a few pillars in their life...
For me, i have pillar of support from my family now...
but i somehow feel tat i am still not satisfied in my life...
my pillar of friendship is going down...
ever since all of us graduated, my frens and I hardly meet up
with each other....
and we dun keep into contact with each other animore...
I am wondering why is all tis happening....
all the promises that was made previously was not kept...
Maybe i should believe the saying, "Never believe in the promises
that others give you cuz 9 out of 10 will not fulfil their promises to u"...
Not only tat, I somehow feel that I'm a loner....
I feel so empty inside my heart although mentally I am busy occupied with work...
sometimes i use work to fill the empty space in my heart...
I juz dun wish to tink so much..
I scared once i start thinking, my tots will be deepened.
The more i think, the more scared i will be....
I really feel like i'm a loner...
on wkdaes i will be busy wrking then after wrk i will go straight home
cuz was veri tired...
on wkends i wan to relax myself a bit but i juz cldn't find
any shopping buddies or cafe buddies to go out wif me...
so mostly i go out wif my family...
luckily last wk my exercise buddy went out wif me..
I'm wondering wad have everyone been doing..
I think i have quite an endurance...
have been wrking for abt 3 mths already....
but i'm statisfied wif my wrk at present....
but i just somehow feel empty in my heart...
maybe the pillar of love and care hasn't been built up yet...
somedae wadever will come will come...
i alwaes believe in fate....

this wkend i'm also quite at a loss of wad to do..
but i've already planned it out already...
gt to go window shopping again by myself...
i'm gonna get a new slippers, a new skirt and a nice bk to read tis wkend..
shopping freak...
sundae will be my family dae...
haiz...sometimes in life
u can't expect much frm it...
wadever will be will be...

maybe due to my loneliness or stress, sometimes i will have mood swing...
just like todae....
but whenever i have a nice bk to read, my mood will be gd...

nxt wk will also be a busy wk 4 me...
gt to do the online registration np thing,
gt to settle bills, gt to grab a laptop...
gt to go bck to sch for the prize giving ceremony thing...
a bit anxious n nervous since i have not gone bck to sch 4 a long time...

Hope tat nxt wk will be a better wk 4 me....
Good nite peeps...

&the beauty.

Shi Teng NP BS

Loves Gd Jap & Korean Food & Shopping!!

Desires
Fly to Korea & Study overseas.

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