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Saturday, November 29, 2008

9:41 PM

Just a quick summarise of tis whole week...

Mon
went bck to sch to reherse the script for the
saudi arbia trip...
nth much abt it...

Tues
went out to cut hair...
I HATE my new hairstlye....
its freaking ugly...
even more ugly than the last time one...
the auntie cut for me the straight kind which i dun wan...
and shld cut 3inch instead of 2..
doesn't make a lot of difference...
the hair is still so long...
ppl will still tink tat and say...
huh realli meh? u sure u gt cut ur hair?
ya...will get another haircut soon...
to trim away the uglyness of it.....
wun be posting any pics of it...to prevent embrassement...

Wed
stay at home the whole dae...
but was veri busyyy....
was packing my room the whole dae..
since after breakfast....
throw away a lot of stuff....
pack those O's bks into the storeroom...
so the dae ended juz lyk tat...

Thurs
went out for a job interview....
ya...fill in some form...
and the next thing is wait for calls again...
then went to watch movie wif frens..
BEVERLY HILL CHIHUAHUA...
it was pretty ok i wld say...
nt say veri veri nice or nt say nt nice..
just ok n juz rite only...
ya...
sth pissed me off b4 the movie...
but i dun wish to mention...wad it is...
after the movie, went to collect the chord shoes
frm my fren 4 tmr...
then at nite still gt banquet to attend...
was veri tired by the time i reach home...
so went to take a short nap...less than 30mins...
as usual...see the same old ppl which i dun lyk them...
the food was not say veri nice...
i skipped a few...
At there, jamie sms me...she said tmr muz meet at 8am...
i was lyk huh i tot is 9am tats wad ms sim said...
in the end it was confirmed tat it was 8am...
omg...she change the time w/o informing me herself...
how can tat be? I was a bit fed up cuz was so tired..sleep so
late then tmr still gt to wake up early..
then it was already 11+...I told my dad tat i got to go
cuz i need to go sch tmr to host the saudi arbia ppl...
so took a cab home...quickly change n bath...
then slept at 11.30..

Fri
woke up at 7.05 lyk tat...
went to sch....
on the way to sch i grab my 2 buns which was my breakfast tat mummy
had prepared for me...
then when i reached sch...i msg ms sim...
then she came out frm the staff room...
guess wad?
she said the Mac breakfast tat she was holding was for us...
its the $2 meal...it is the thought tat counts...
but the funny thing is where gt ppl drink coke in the morning?
so i didn't touch the coke at all...
was full already...
then after sth crop up wif the sheets...
then drag for so long...didn't manage to get jamie's blazer...
drag n drag...ms sim keep on do the sheet thing then nv attend to us...
i was lyk so panic already other ppl r dressed already except for us....
finally managed to get it..took a bit longer in the toliet...
then somebodi complained say i slow....omg...
then at 10+ the saudi arbia ppl came...a warm welcome to them...
mdm lee received them at the foyer...
they came to spin room...we had to be lyk air stewardess(Sorri if i spelt it wrongly)and smile at them...then went in...
stant at the back...listen to mdm Lee presentation...
give them some pastries as breakfast...
the ppl didn't realli eat a lot...they onli touch a little bit...
wad4 take so mani for them in the first place...
then after tat..they came around the booth...
I did my presentation...
but i guess i was nervous...so i spoke a bit faster...
nt my usual one when i practice...
but it's already over at least i've done my part....
but the saudi arbia man was lyk nt realli concentrating on
wad i am saying...he looks a bit bored when i eye contact wif him...
so zzzzz.....
then after tat they took a tour around the sch....
things did nt turn out the way tat Mr Lau said..
he said tat this ppl will nt be interested in wad we are goin to say
n he say they may even walk away...but tats nt true....
then after the thing...we went bck to spin room to eat the pasteries
and have coffee....the tea was super sweet..the coffee was nice...
shortly after, at abt going to 12 lyk tat...
there's a lunch buffet at the art room...
it served indonesian food...
omg..i tink i am getting fatter seriously...wif so mani food...
ate 4 times...one after another..was veri super full...
was quite okay...the orange juice was veriiiiii sweet...
i had to dilute it by adding water...
i cannot imagine tat the saudi arbia ppl can drink it w/o diluting it...
haha...
ya...then came bck...use com...watch shows...
my cousin go watch movie wif my sis....
rest of the day was at home...
nth much to say...
except tat i fell asleep during shows again...
ya tat ends my dae...

Todae
read the newspaper todae...
read abt the singapore girl who was killed in mumbai by the terrorist...
felt so saddened by the news...
she was a lawyer and she was only 28 yrs old...
so young and have such a bright future awaits her...
why muz such a thing happen to singaporean?
I can totally understand the pain of losing ur love ones...
i experience it b4...
so i was tinking and reflecting to myself abt tis news in the afternoon...
now the world is so chaotic...
economic recession, india mumbai is under terrorist attacks, thailand political
is in such a mess...nobodi dares to go overseas nw...
rising tension around the world and threat to world peace...
wad is happening to the world? why is it lyk tat?
so saddening...
was home also...except in the morning
went out to do sth...
evening went out to lot one...
ate Mos burgar juz nw...
but it's veri expensive...
mum comment tat the nuggets r nt nice...
and i did a veri stupid thing juz nw...
i dun wan to mention...veri paiseh...
curry sauce became mustard sauce...haha...lol..
but i guess i was veri moody juz nw cuz they alwaes cannot decide
wad they wan to eat...then have to walk up and down...so irritating...
then i throw my temper again...okay i noe tat i'm bad and in the wrong...
sorri m**.....
then went to shop around...mum bought for me
and my sis a new Little miss***shirt....
was happi...haha oh ya forgot to mention...
i went to try the levis jeans...was okay..
i wanted one but dun have my size so sad..
maybe i'll go other outlet tmr to check it out...
I am a bit moody and emo todae and fed up todae....
i realli hate her for wad she had done...
she didn't even spare a thought for me....
so why shld i care abt her n even bother her feelings in the first place?
we're equal...i dun have to feel guility towards u animore...
becuz tis is wad u've done to me...so why shld i give u face...
i've finally seen ur true colours...now then i know tat u're selfish...
fine...since its lyk tat...we shalll go our seperate ways...
u find ur own...and i'll do mine...
u caused me to lose a partner lyk tat...
now then i know the nature of ppl...realistic n selfish lots...
now i will only trust myself n my family...
cuz they are the ones who will nt betray me...

shall end here nw...
Gd nite....

&the beauty.

11:10 AM

Hello everyone...i'm bck..
haha...been real busy these few daes and for the past wkends...
so didn't really have the time to online and update my blog..
since i have some time todae might as well do it..

Sat(22/11)
tis dae was kss open hse...
i was tasked and went bck to help our dear
f&n teacher Mrs chan and Ms karen wong...
yeah...reached there earlier...
eat my mac lunch and went around...
i received a shocking news...i was stunned...
nxt fri(28/11) the southern arbia rich guys r cuming
to visit our sch...i was tasked to go bck to help on
tis dae to promote the asethtics department...
when i received tis news...i was omg..wondering
whether am i up to tis job? Am i a gd speaker?
haha...but most importantly HAVE GREAT CONFIDENCE IN MYSELF!
I CAN DO IT!
After the southern arbia trip i'll update more...
so we help out in the f&n room...
I help to cut the ingredients...then yan ling help to do the demo...
saw some old frens...but everytink seems so unfamiliar...dunno why...
we packed up at abt 2.30pm and chat wif mrs chan..
then ater tat me and yt went lot one to shop....
saw a few pieces of clothes tat i lyk...but as usual...
no job, no $$ so cannot buy...
but the gd news is tat i've found a job...yeah...
the details haven realli confirm cuz the lady said she will call mi
todae...finalli..hope tat it will nt be too tedious...
then after tat met my mum for dinner at abt 7pm lyk tat...
ate korea food...was veri nice..=)
then after tat we went to try the desert at the basement...
the mango one was veri nice but at the same time expensive...
when i reached home is already abt 9pm lyk tat..went to bath...
use com while then sleep...zzz...

Sun(23/11)
woke up at abt 10am...
then the phone rang....haha...
it was my aunt...she jio us go eat Mac breakfast...
omg...ytd i juz ate Mac lunch nw breakfast...
i tink i'm goin to fall sick and get fat soon...
nonono...dun wan tat....
yeah...after breakfast..went to shop around lot 1...
it was boring...
my uncle said he gt job lobang...it's abt selling donuts
@ amk hub...he said he will help me ask but in the end
also nv give mi a reply...juz some flase hope...
but in the end managed to get help n find job....
yeah then went NTUC wif mum to buy groceries...
reached home abt 2-3++...
once bck...have to do household chores...
busy busy....4.30 watch shows...
at nite had spaghettie for dinner...tis dinner was after
much scolding...haiz...
haha...then watch the channel 8 45th Anniversary Gala...
it was nice...some parts veri funny..lyk the liang xi mei...
i'm show tis show is veri successful and bought bck a lot of memories
for singapore viewers who grew up with channel 8...
yeah...ended my dae..kept watchin tv...
yeah btw i've taken some photos of us during the breakfast...
I'll upload it..they are below...take a LOOK!...
my cousin veri pretty n cute rite?

Mon(24/11)
ytd...woke up at abt 10am...
nowadays veri tired...alwaes sleep early then woke up late...
i tink tis becums a habit of mine...
yeah....went bck to sch...to reherse the script for
the fri southern arbia visit....
yeah...then after tat slack in the staff room....at ms wong's desk...
then at abt 3 lyk tat walked to lot 1 wif ms ho and ms vanitha...
they were talking abt their holidae trip...
yeah maybe they will get excited but i'm nt....
yeah...then went lot one to buy my lunch...
haha...it was hilarious...I ate half of the bread
then when i wanted to take out the other half i accidently drop it...
on the ground...cannot eat le....dump it into the rubbish bin...
so stupid...lol...
yeah as usual came back watch tv...tv has becum part of my life...
since nw i haven start working...i have a lot of time to watch...
but if i start working, i guess i will realli miss my shows...=(

today(25/11)
todae...have a few things to do...
ltr will be goin out wif Mel...
she is accompanying me go cut hair...
after much tinking...i decided to trim my hair
and get a new hair cut wif a new hairstyle tat suits me...
i wanted to cut my fringe either straight or slant...
but i'll have to see first...
haha...maybe i'll post photos of my new hairstyle soon...
yeah...then after tat we said tat we will be going to the
pasar malam to see see around....and slack....
there's one thing tat makes me awaits todae...
it is the lady's call...cuz she need to tell mi the details for the job...
hope so....
yeah....so shall update more the nxt few daes...
h/v, if i start working, will nt be blogging so often animore...

Alrite...buhbyee...take care peeps...

&the beauty.

3:10 PM

Hey peeps I'm bck...
I have finally and managed to upload all the photos...
I created them into a slideshow 4 u guys to view...
hope tat u all will enjoy and do tagged to give comments...
thanx a lot...

A quick update for this wk and the past events
tat is the prom nite and the class chalet....

Mon(17/11)
Overall, prom nite was quite fun and memorable...
we view the video montage...bought bck a lot of memories...
then the food was not very gd...some was gd but some was disgusting...
i lyk the sweet and sour prawn the best...
then we went around to give our thanx card to the teachers...
they were happi n thank us...
felt touched...
then we went around to take a lot of photos wif frens and teachers....
me and mel was lyk crazy going around to take pics wif
the stunning cool shades tat she bought...
pics speaks a thousand words...
u can see for urself how we look wif the shades...haha...
yeah tat nite ended but it will always stay in my heart
the it will be the most memorable one...
oh ya...James can to find me...invited me to join the alumni...
haha...on account of him n my dear ms karen wong...
I joined....haha...
mel's dad sent us home..it was already 12 midnite...
went bck was veri tired...
but received the concerns frm a few ppl...thx a lot...
went straight to bed....

Tues & wed (18&19 Nov)
it was class chalet these 2 daes...
woke up in the morning abt 9++...
then went to pack bag to prepare for the chalet...
me, yt and mel arranged to meet at cck ctrl station at 12.30...
in the end i was late then mel accompany me go KFC to eat lunch...
then met up wif yt ltr...
it was a long 1hr trip to pasir ris...
reached there at abt 3++ lyk tat...
then at 1st it was rather bored...we played uno...
then we went to the beach to take photos...
another beautiful memory....
went bck...surprisingly i went to sleep...so stupid...
then woke up it was bbq time...
i didn't eat the bbq food although my frens they all were veri
nice they kept asking me to eat...
but i dun dare to tell them tat i can't eat bbq food
cuz i will have diarrhoea and vommiting in the middle of nite...
so mel, yt and me went to the food court to eat....
i went to buy Japanese don..i came bck then mel and yt went out to buy their food...
i was alone at the table by myself..
then beside our table there was a grp of guys....
then suddenly gt 1 guy came and "da shan" me....
i tink he's kind of shy...his frens ask him to sit at my table...
but in the end i said tat my frens were sitting there...
then he went bck to his seat...
his frens reactions were veri big...omg...
yeah...but after tat i realised tat he still kept
looking at me...so i told mel and yt to go outside and eat
even though they had nt finished their food...
it was veri awakered...n embrassing...
but at least i noe sth in my heart which makes me a little happi...
tis is lyk my 1st time experiencing tis kind of thing...haha...
it can be consider a joyful thing...
at nite we slack and play ds...i read my magazine...
slept at 3+ woke up at 5+...
onli had 2 hrs of sleep...cldn't sleep cuz the aircon was
simply too cold already even though i slept on the bed...
yeah then went for breakfast...
then when we came bck, sth happened...
this chalet i wld say tat it's nt veri gd...
cuz sth happen btw our frenship too...
but it was okay already in the end...
Gald...

came bck...was tired and irritated due to lack of sleep...
then certain things happened...i cried...
and fell alsleep...slept for 5 hrs....
tat nite slept at 11.lyk tat the nxt dae woke up at
12noon...i cldn't believe it....guess i was realli tired...
then mrs chan called me when i juz woke up...haha...
i find it hard to communicate wif my m**nowadays..
i oso dunno why....haiz...

then thurs and fri was slacking at home...
busy uploading all the photos...
busy and desperately looking for jobs...
tat's wad i'm busy all abt...
alrite i'm off to create another slideshow for the chalet photos
again...c ya another time...
take care...peeps...

&the beauty.

9:45 PM

Hey ppl..
bck frm prom nite and chalet...
it was superrrr tiring....but fun...
a lot of things..n preparation....
and a lot of photos was taken....
had a lot of photos taken especially wif mel...
pictures speaks a thousand words...
I am too lazy to upload the photos nw....
and mel is sending me all the photos nw....
so hadn't had the time to sort it out..
maybe I will upload the photos tmr or tis wkend...
but tis wkend I will also be busy....
see how it goes bahx...
btw today i woke up at 12 noon...slept at 11.30 last nite...
damm tired...had abt 13 hrs of sleep...
felt energetic nw...haha...

Chalet was quite boring i wld say...
lack of sleep....
and certain things happen and certain things i found out...
i dunno whether shld i say is good or bad...
cause i realli dunno....
haiz...think and think oso no use...
but i've at least proven sth n shld be happi abt...
but i wld say tat this chalet is nt good and nt smooth-sailing...
hicups on the way...
jian lun's psp was stolen....cldn't find...
then someone was kind of hosptalised...
it wld say tat it's bad....

Alrite peeps...gt to end here...
shall upload the photos soon...happi waiting...
gd nite...

&the beauty.

7:36 PM

Hey peeps
Grad Nite is tmr...
kind of feeling excited n nervous....
there will be a lot of preparation tmr....
it is gonna be a long but enjoyable dae....
will be takin lots of photos wif frens n teachers..
I came up wif the idea of giving thx card to the teachers
during grad nite....
haha...then mel, yt, grace, and aishah are all in 4 it....
haven write the cards yet....
will be writing ltr....
spent 2 hrs doing on my nails today....
haha...will sure post lots of photos after grad nite....
but rite after grad nite will chalet...
will also be taking pics....so will update u guys soon....

updates on what i did ytd....
went Marina sq and Suntec wif mel n yt...
my shopping buddies....
yeah saw lots of things tat i lyk...
and at the same time bght quite a lot of things bck also....
mel they all bought a new wallet for me at the wallet shop....
then we went precious tots to buy the thx cards....
then we went to suntec the bkfest...
I was lyk kind of typical s'porean at first....
I took a lot of assesment bks for my sis...
In the end choose 6 out of all....
and bght some doreamon comics....
bought 3 only...regretted shld have buy more instead...becuz its
sooo cheap...
yeah then went bck to lot 1 to have dinner wif mum n sis....
then went to sasa to buy nail polish and the fren the remover....
went home...was tired n exhausted...

todae all day home.....but was still rather busy....
doing some stuff lyk painting nails...
it was the creation frm sumone...(S**)
I decided not to buy contact lense anymore....
cuz it was ex and did nt wan to spend so much money....
so juz drop the idea....

Yeah btw todae is little cousin Kai yuan's b'dae...
Here's wishing him, Happi 7th B'dae, Yuan! =)
Couldn't go for his b'dae celebration todae cuz busy....
he pleaded me but to no avail....
so sorri yuan tat we can't go for ur b'dae....

wonder how will tmr be....
imagining.....

there's still no news of my job....
still waiting for it...
hopefully will get some gd news frm yan ling....

Alrite...shall end here nw....
to settle the cards and the schedule tmr...

gd nite...zzzzz...=)

&the beauty.

12:16 PM

O'level is over....
I suddenly felt tat there is no direction n goals in life
tat i need to pursue...
Life may felt a bit empty....
everyday do the usual stuff...

But there is one thing tat i realli wan to do rite nw....
tat is to find job...
i wanted $$ desperately to do and fulfill many of my needs...
I had tot of it b4...
if i get my first pay, I will....

Give some $$ to my mum and dad
Buy my Mango Jeans and other stuff (Maybe a pair of shoe)
Bring my mum and aunt out for a sumptous buffet meal
Pay my own hp bills
Save a sum of it

[Cuz deep in my heart I noe tat my aunt treat me very well....so this is my 1st pay I must express my gratitude towards her....=)]

And my dad has always been the one who is paying for my Hp bills....he has been doing this for almost 2 yrs cuz my contract is going to be up soon....so i hope to lessen his heavy burden...

I hope to earn as much $$ as possible during this holidae...

ppl may tink tat i am very money-minded....

but i hope to do this 4 several reasons...

one is to lessen the burden on my parents...

next is to buy the things tat i realli wan with the $ earned from the hard labour tat i put in

the joy of having more $$...haha....

I hope to get the edusave scholarship the $500....

so that i can have more $$....pray hard tat it will cum true....

yeah..so these few daes have been job hunting....

hopefully will find one soon....all e best to myself...

These few daes just feel lyk staying at home and nt going anywhere...

maybe too tired of all those shopping already bahx...

Just left a few more stuf to purchase for prom nite and tat's it....

These few daes have a very gd sleep every nite as compared to the daes during O's...

During the O's...I cldn't sleep well...I will wake up in the middle of the nite and start to think abt mani things...perhaps this cld be I am too stress...

wadever it is...it is over..no pt thinkin abt it anymore....

These few daes, mum have been reminding me abt certain things...

I noe tat this is for my own benefit....but sumtimes I oso dunno why the emotions ctrl me instead....kind of get frustrated easily...

Nothing much to do todae either....finished reading my magazine...

I think the rest of the days is watchin shows n helping mum with the chores....

I was thinking whether shld I do up or buy a card and write sth inside n give it to e chers during prom nite....as part of showing appreciation..I dunno...still thinking...

Shall end here peeps...have a gd day....=)

&the beauty.

11:57 AM

I'm bck to this blog at last....
O'level is over....all the mugging, hardwrk and late nite sleep will disappear....
but some things still haven't disappear....
the fear is still entangling themselves in my stomach....
the fear of getting results....
the fear of nt doin well.....
the fear of having to depart wif my frens....
the fear of going to a new institution.....
the fear tat my parents might blame me...hope tat they will nt....
all these tots rumbled thru my mind....
everyone feel so happy n relaxed nw after the O's....
but I dun realli feel tat way like them....
I oso dunno why....

I feel tat i am going to fall sick le....
haha...tis cld be e result of eating popcorn n nachos ytd....
Melody, yt, grace and aishah celebrated for me my belated b'dae ytd....
they had a series of surprises for me....
at first i was wondering wad r they up to although i have limited clues....
we went to shaw centre to watch High sch Musical 3 (the senior yr)....
it was pretty nice....had a lot of musical singing n dances btw troy and gabrielle...
the sharpay was veri funny....she did nt expect her assistant to betray her...
it was pretty gd...we had a lot of fun....
ytd was consider the last dae of sch....
so we took photos in sch with our sch uniform...
as a memory 4 all of us...
the feeling of having to part is uncomfortable....
the photos r wif melody nw...i shall post it when i receive it frm her...

After tat we proceed to shaw centre....
after the movie....we went shopping around Orchard...
but it was lyk an adventure trip...
haha we didn't realli noe where to go...
so we just walk n walk....
we went to forum the shopping mall...it was boring...
all the children stuff....haha...
we went to the BIG ZARA....and MANGO....
my favourite....
I saw a pair of Mango Jeans tat i lyk....but to my diappointment..
it was $75...then mel saw a pair of Jeans skirt tat she lyk....
it was $50 bucks...haiz...
can either save up $$ for it or go work use my salary to buy....

However during the trip, there are certain unhappi things which i
will nt mention here as a respect to others...

Prom nite will be cuming soon...
it's nxt mon....
kind of looking forward to it...
but yt is more excited...
I've bought my prom nite dress already...
went to vivo city with my mum on Sunday...
bought it at Tangs after much hesitation...
it cost me $100++...Boo...
Although i am nt the one paying 4 it....
but i still feel the pain....
but the dress is realli beautiful...

Alrite, peeps, shall end here....goin 4 lunch n shows nw....
Take care n have a great Holiday!

&the beauty.