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Sunday, November 26, 2006

2:54 PM

Y are tears so vulnerable??
Y am i crying....
Y are my tears lyk water tap....
keep flowing non-stop.....
Ang Shi Teng, can you stop it.....
YYYYYYYY?
there r so mani Ys in tis world....I juz seems to can't find de answer to my question.....
tears taste salty....happiness taste sweet...
angry taste hot.....jealous taste sour....
the 4 taste "suan tian ku la"
perhaps i'm realli wrong.....
but wad i wan is no more hurting words....
y can't a simple dream lyk tat cum true?
wad shld i do??
i noe i'm nt de best of all...
i noe tat there's room for improvement....
wad i am is all because of u...
y can't anione understand how i am feeling....
y is life juz so miserable??
y muz u alwaes compare....
y some ppl are born rich while some are born poor?
y is tis world juz so UNFAIR???
Y muz ppl be so caculating...
life is short n unpredictable...
we shld treaure everything around us n nt to be so caculating...
Y is things bound to happen when we go out??
i shld realli count my blessing....

&the beauty.

3:45 PM

Hello...I'm bck to blog..
Haven't been blogging for long...
juz wan to blog abt todae....
TODAY WAS A BAD MOOD DAY
My feelings is like a bowl of salad....
it has different mixture....
a salad has cabbage, tomatoes, thousand island cream
n mani more.....
my feeling is sad+angry=???
i oso dunno.....
these few daes have been veri busy for me....
I JUZ WAN A BREAK
went bck to sch yesterdae+todae+ tommorrow
wad saddens me the most was todae
todae i went bck to sch to do stock taking n
e ZEST competition podcast thing....
but in the end....
IT IS JUZ NOTHING AT ALL
none of my grp members came....
this is wad saddens mi the most
i tink the key to the problem is becuz of
communication failure bahx....
perhaps it's lyk tat....
so i didn't do anitink much abt e podcast thing todae...
tomoro still have to go bck to sch to do
which i didn't want to
cuz i'm veri tired n wan a break...
Y can't they or anyone understand how
i am feeling???
Y r human beings juz so selfish??
selfish...realli selfish...
YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY???????????
i feel like i am a frog who is cooped up in a well nw....
staring at the sky.....
wanting to get out from the well..
but veri helpless....can't do anitink
except tinkin of gettin out of the well....
how i iwish i can be a bird...
flying freely in the sky...
w/o ani worries+stress
Y?????
haiz...i juz dunno...
nvm...
but i'm feeling better nw after words frm
Ms wong & Kai Yun
THANK YOU MS WONG & KAI YUN
kai yun said tat becuz of my trouble, i can't set myself free....
I believe & trust tis is true

Alrite....shall end here...
will blog nxt time....keep a lookout! =)
buhbyee....
take care people....

&the beauty.

5:03 PM

Hello...I'm bck to update...
it's been a long time since i last blog....
cuz very busy recently....
Gt so much things to share and tok abt...=)

4/11 Sat
it was KSS open house on this dae....
I went bck to help out...
i was allocated to the 2nd shift which was frm 1.30-4.30pm...
but i went there earlier around 12+ to help out after having my lunch...
the open hse was considered "ok"....
it was a bit bored at certain times...
explain to parents abt stuff and answered their Qns...
there was 1 parent who was veri funni...
He asked how we spend the profits tat we earned...
then i explained to him the 3 parts....
1 part was dividends...
then he asked me how much did i get for my dividends...
i was embrassed n i tink tat tat was a weird qn, isn't it??
but i still answered him bck.....:)
then at 4 pm, pack up all the stuff and go home..
Me, yan ling and Miss Ho walked to lot 1 together...
had a nice chat...
then yan ling accompany me to go find my i-weekly magazine
which i have always been wanting to go buy
but becuz of my mum so i had to delay until so late...
we went to a few newspaper stands and stores...
unfortunately.....sad to say...:(
THEY R ALL SOLD OUT!!!
I WAS SO ANGRY LOR!!
that was my favourite issue and somemore gt GOONG leh....
how could i missed it???
so i was very fed up....
went to popular they have but it's not brand new some was even torn!!!
how could tis be???
so went wif yan ling to buy her taiwan chicken...
In the end....i'm happi to say tat...
I'VE FINALLY BOUGHT THE MAGAZINE THAT I WANT....
it was not realli brand new lar but juz "jiang jiu yi dian" lor...
met my mum n sis....n went for dinner....
tat's the end of my day!!:)

5/11 Sun
todae was fun n great n hilarious!!!!
went to mani places..=)
went out the whole dae frm morning till nite...haha...:)
morning set off at 9+...went to beauty world plaza....
ate mac breakfast at there as what my mum had promised us earlier....
Thx mum for keeping your promise...
then after breakfast, accompanied my mum to see a doctor...
waited for veri long...there was a lot of ppl...
luckily i brought along my magazine if nt i will be so bored...
after doctor...my dad came n fetch us....
he drove us to tanglin mall there to eat chicken rice...
e chicken rice was strongly recommended by him...
he said tat he went there mani times n he said the chicken rice was very nice...
so we went to try...
afterall...i found the chicken rice quite nice lar....nt bad...
but the chilli was too hot for me...:D
After tanglin...went to IMM....
it was GREAT too...
i tink i had went there for a long time....
the place had renovated and expanded....
it became bigger, nicer and more shops!!
happy shopping at there...haha....
then after IMM, took bus n train to West Mall....
we stayed there for very long....
we went to singtel...
and FINALLY....after mani yrs of waiting...
my waiting have been paid off!!!
Finally I have a HP of my own!!!
yeah!!lyk it very much...will treasure it...
haha...
realli very happi todae....=):)
went bck to lot 1 n went home....
tat's all for todae....

6/11 Mon
went out with my friends todae for a gathering and watch movie....
it has been a long time since we went out...
i missed those gd old daes....
ya...
n it has oso been a long time tat all 5 of us are free to go out together....
in the past onli 3 of us would go out shopping n stuff lyk tat...
but todae it was 5....haha...finally....
we went to watched the movie ....
overall...i tink it was nt bad....quite interesting n funni....
sum parts was realli very funni....lol....:D
enjoyed the movie....:)
after movie..we went to have lunch....
ate at kfc....i ate shrooms meal.....
was veri full until nearly can't walk....haha...
after tat we took train bck to lot 1....
n we went out seperate ways....
me n melody go home while grace, aishah and yan ting go library....
then in the evening...went to my ah ma house for dinner...
saw my 2 cute little cousins again....it was great....had fun with them...
but i was sad tat i did nt record Goong todae....ahahah...
i've forgotten b4 i left the hse
as i was tokin on the phone with my cousin b4 i left...
haiz...but i watched at my ah ma hse...
but did nt realli enjoyed cuz it was a bit too noisy...
too mani children n adults...
all the noise here n there....disturbing my tv...
was a bit irritated....but's it's ok lar....
tat's the end of my dae....

7/11 Tues
todae was pretty fine....
i was busy too.....
went to IRAS in the afternoon with sabrina....
went there for YE zest competition stuff...
took a train frm cck to novena....
it was a veri LONG trip....45mins then reached...wan to fall asleep.....
it's lyk goin to orchard lyk tat.....so long....
we were new to the place cuz we didn't go there b4...
so at first we didn't know where to go n other stuff...
we explore around n walked the underpass....
and finally reached IRAS...
we were late when we reached....
we were suppose to meet at 2.45pm @ IRAS level 1 with the student mentors...
but in the end we reached @ 3+ n we saw no one wearing uniform @ level 1....
so we were shocked n worried....
but a miracle appeared at tis time....
a few student mentors were walking into level 1
n they saw us n they asked r we the competition participents....
we said yes n they lead us the way into the IRAS world....
@ there...we view video clips n power point slide shows...juz lyk a talk...
there were oso quizzes in the powerpoint...
everyone was eager to answer n they all raised their hands at once...
so the lady-in-charge did nt know who to choose....
but in the end use the mtd "123"
the reward was a pen...n mani ppl r fighting to get it....
sabrina n I did nt answer ani qn so we didn't get anitink...
during the talk...we learnt abt tax n taxation what are they...
we oso learnt abt the different types of tax...
i found those info useful for the future...
after the talk...there was a short break....
there were some snacks served....i ate some....
but the drink taste awful....
too sweet n too thick n it had some sort of weird taste...
but managed to gulp it all up....
after the break, we went for a guided tour around IRAS....
i enjoyed the tour....
during the tour, we get to see ppl's office, how they work,
how the machine worked eg the receive of letters
how the machine open up the letters n how the staff classified them...
i oso saw another machine which was lyk a scanner...it's speed was veri fast...
but i dunno how to state it's function....
i was thinking to myself tat maybe 1 dae i want to join IRAS...
IRAS was pretty gd....the place was veri big...
the working environment oso nt bad...
we were released late....actually suppose to be 4.30pm...
but in the end @ 4.45pm lyk tat...
took train home too with sabrina....
i was gald tat sabrina came with me to IRAS todae...
at least we had each other's company so we wouldn't be lost or so worried...
went bck to lot 1 to buy some stuff for my mum...
was veri tired....
tat's the end of my dae....

how abt todae? 8/11
stayed at home as usual....
nth much to tok abt.....

Alrite...shall end here....
take care...
Buhbyee!!!=)

&the beauty.

6:27 PM

HELLO....
bck to update on these few daes.....

1/11 wed
this was a pretty bad dae for mi.....
it was an unlucky dae....
i hate it...
i scalded my hand....
sob sob...:(
it's painful....
haiz....
and it left a mark on my hand....:(
juz hope tat it will heal faster...

2/11 thurs
was pretty happi todae...
but bored at the same time...
my mum promised me tat tis sundae she will be bringing us
to mai dang dang(Mcdonald) for breakfast...
I was so happi!!
Horray!!
haha...

3/11 todae
todae was a saddening dae....
haiz...
got scolded....
i'm realli gettin very bored with my holidaes....
i can't stand tis boring daes...
i dunno how am i going to continue with the rest of my holidaes....
SUPER BORED!!!!
i was packing my room todae when i saw some of the
letters and stuff tat my frens had given mi....
memories flow bck into my mind....
made mi veri sad...
let's skip tis subject...
tommorow is saturday.....
is the sch open house....
i will be going bck in the afternoon to help out....

OK...i'll end here...
will update on tmr open hset tmr...
take care...
cheers...:(

[A.saddening.dae.tat.i.will.nv.forget] :(

&the beauty.